073;
last night
fireworks lit up the sky
celebration of a new year
a new beginning
it always takes me back
to this moment in the past
I guess because it’s something I’m trying to forget?
It’s minutes after midnight,
we’ve done the whole kiss thing
everyone is smiling, excited, drunk
but -
I am in the kitchen alone
I needed a moment
like I often do,
a glass of champagne has somehow appeared in my hand,
but tonight
tonight I am painfully sober
I put my hand on my stomach
still flat
no sign of the tiny blueberry sized life yet;
I have known for a few days
it is not how I imagined my new year to start
but tonight
there is a handsome, blue eyed man
looking at me like I’m all that matters,
tonight doesn’t count
tonight is the end of a year
tonight is a new beginning
;
blueberry sized decisions can wait
