I dream about tentacles taking over cities;

it's an absurd dream

surrealistic

trying to escape but the giant creature is always watching,

tentacles spreading like roots all over the world

 

I dream about driving and losing control;

the car going fast forward

& 

I can't stop

no break pedal under my foot

 

and I'm not a dream interpreter;

but I can guess that the speeding car is really a metaphor

for a life that I can't control,

the squid is a bit more difficult, or so I would like to think

but really? 

 

Tentacles that are like the snare that I feel around my heart

every day

every beat

getting tighter

and tighter

tighter

 

it's a sad fact but for a long time

anxiety has been my best friend;

and it's such a worthless best friend.